A couple of months ago I shared a post about performance anxiety and preparation written by Adrian Oceguera. Since then, Adrian performed his first leading role, Dr Frederick Frankenstein in TAA's "Young Frankenstein." Continuing to use meticulous preparation to combat any anxiety, these are Adrian's thoughts on preparing for that highly coveted first lead!
How I did it.... by Victor Frankenstein
But really, it's actually by Frederick Frankenstein, or preferably, Fronken-steen!!
A few months ago, I was blessed to to have been asked to perform as Dr.
Frederick Frankenstein in the Theater Arts Alliance's production of the
musical, Young Frankenstein. If you don't know, that is the lead part
in a hilarious, raunchy comedy from the beloved Mel Brooks. For me, this
was my first lead role, and while I was thrilled at the opportunity, if
you read my post from a while back on anxiety, you might guess that
with all the excitement, there was also an extreme amount of terror.
So I'd like to tell you a little about how I prepared for the part, and
how I adjusted myself to live in the moment. I don't want you to really
think of this as advice though. A close friend of mine reminded me
that, "there's lots of good role prep advice out there from people that
have done many many many [shows]". So instead, I'd like to give you my
perspective as a first time lead, and what I went through on my journey
through Transylvania Heights.
When I first got the notice, you
could only imagine how shocked I was. I even let out a little "manly"
squeal! Having done this show before *oops forgot to mention that
sooner*, I was honestly floored at the opportunity to portray this
amazing character, but then it sank in... how was I supposed to memorize
those lines? What if I forgot the words to my song on stage? Is my
laugh maniacal enough?
Let me let you in on a not so hidden
secret... all those things happened, and I'm still here writing this, so
obviously, I survived. Let's work backwards a little bit. There are a
few things that I found to be essential while preparing for this role,
and maybe some of it will make sense for you as well.
First, and
probably the most universal and obvious, is hard work. This one applies
to everyone in every cast. WORK Hard! If you aren't convinced that you
are the hardest working person in a cast, then you're not doing it
right. Now, that statement is extremely subjective, and it's supposed to
be. Be the hardest working person doesn't mean anything specifically to
anyone, but rather is meant to be a reminder that you were chosen
because someone genuinely believed that you would make a positive
difference in their production, and even more, that you were a person
that they wanted to be around for long periods of time, because let's
face it, rehearsal schedules are often by-products of the fires of hell.
Anyways.... work hard.
Next, always trust and believe. No... not
in yourself! So SELFISH! Just kidding. Yes, of course you should always
believe in yourself, but more importantly, you need to believe in those
around you. Believe that your director is making the choices they do
with your best interest at
heart, and trust that your cast mates will be
there when you fall. I say this, because undoubtedly you will question a
decision, and undoubtedly you will fall. The whole situation comes down
to not how you fall, but how you recover. Plenty of times during this
production did I find myself stretching for a line when on stage or
trying to remember what the next blocking scene was. Every time... EVERY
SINGLE TIME... one of my cast mates was there to catch me. I remember
one instance in particular, where I'm supposed to act as if I'm walking
off stage, but then I'm supposed to revert back and choke a large
creature. Well, I didn't. Instead, I thought it would be a nice time to
wander off stage and immediately I ran into a wall of cast mates
silently choking themselves and mouthing "you son of a b*tch,
b%stard"(my lines). So naturally I ran back on stage and the scene went
off without a hitch. Kinda. Point is, trust in everyone around you,
because nobody wants you to succeed more than them.
Finally, make
decisions. I was chosen to play this character, a living breathing
entity that's supposed to have a mind of it's own. When playing
Frederick, I decided to do the show with as close as I could get to Gene
Wilder's voice. While some may say that I should have put my own spin
on it, I'd argue that including the voice WAS me putting my own spin on
it. I made the conscious decision to include it. Nobody told me to, and
honestly I felt more comfortable doing the scenes with that voice than
my own. Be devoted to what you want people to see and hear. Sure, you
may get suggestions, or down right "change that because it's not
working"(s), but when given the freedom, take the time to think about
what character you're putting off, and if you don't like it, change it.
Well, there you go! I totally got more lecture-y than I wanted to, but
that was my preparation in a nutshell. I went over my lines countless
times, I found comfort and solace knowing that I had so much talent
around me, and I made decisions about what I wanted to be on stage. One
of the best facets about doing so many shows and playing so many
characters is the everlasting opportunity to grow. If every single role
you got was a tribute to being better than the last, you will be
[mostly] unstoppable. Take the time to improve yourself, and your craft.
You're totally worth it!
P.S.- Don't be a jerk, go to strike!
Adrian's next role is LeFou in TAA's Beauty and the Beast -- looking forward to it! :)